the lights went out
the whole room’s quiet
but a ray of sunshine
found its way inside it
inside the room
the room of darkness
lost hope
lost cause
lost desire
but with what cost?
the little ray of sunshine
doesn’t fill the void
or the so-called
“soul”
soul…
cope?
no more.
no more coping
mechanisms
no one sees it…
criticism?
criticism…
why’s it so cruel?
why does no one
really see you?
feel you?
through the lyrics
of your heartbeat
the empty room
of darkness, quiet
they’re coming
and laughing
they saw me
who are they
my neighbour
or is it
a stalker
no
they’re running
in the sunny
air of October
I see
the freedom
get lost after the corner
should I run?
where should I hide…
the forest,
the warm air
leaves me behind
behind
my shoelace
it’s untied
“wait for me!”
what’s for me?
what’s near me?
I’m drowning
in the laughter
They’re near me.
it’s too warm
the sun’s hiding
but the light here
is frightening
the leaves fall
the doors close
I’m tired
get me home
home!
where?
I can’t find it
just got off the bus
I should see it…
the doorway.
it’s right there
but where exactly?
what does that mean?
what’s the meaning?
is it lying?
it can’t be
I can’t let it
it’s dying.
the system.
the rain kills electricity
the city
the falling leaves
are showing the way,
the way Home.
animals
humans
mammals
co-workers
it’s the same
same as me.
am I a horse?
or just a teen?
a teen
a kid
a teenage dream
or reality?
fake scenery,
no energy
the situation changes,
but still
nobody wins
the kids
all grow up
as new years show up
but never leave
they’re all in me
the past
the years
the kids I knew
the flowers I grew
the people who stole them…
Animals!
can’t trust them.
Török-Schuller Lilla X.R
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